The Battle For Sleep

I think its fair to say that I am not a morning person. For as long as I can remember, I have never been a person who wakes up in the morning feeling refreshed and ready to face the day. On the contrary, I wake feeling lethargic, frustrated, sore, and agitated. I have a problem with sleep, and its all my own doing.

You see, I have to fight myself to go to bed at night, let alone to get to sleep, then once I finally do get to sleep, I never want to get out of bed. After waking, I can easily lie in bed for another few hours, dozing on and off, or falling back into a deep sleep.

It’s an incredibly frustrating position to be in, during the working week for obvious reasons, and on weekends, because I spend half of each day in bed, and lose more half of my weekend to the bedroom. It has to be frustrating for my partner as well, never having me come to bed at the same time, and always waking up hours before I do.

On a typical work day, I wake between 7:00 and 7:30 in the morning, and contemplate the pros and cons of calling in sick, then rolling back over to sleep some more1. Then I drag myself into work, feeling like I probably should have stayed at home to sleep some more, and promise myself “I’ll have an early night tonight”. Of course, I never do have that mythical “early” night.

I could postulate any number of reasons for why I have this problem, but the reality is, any of the reasons I put forth are likely excuses, not reasons. I need to simply take the necessary steps to ensure that I get a good nights sleep, and end the cycle.

With that in mind, I’m off to toss and turn in bed for a while before finally falling asleep.

Footnotes

  1. I have never actually done this, and don’t ever plan to, its just part of my morning routine. ↩